I’m waiting for the world to conspire just for me. But it already has. Time and time again it’s given me sign after sign telling me to pursue my dreams. An aunt that sends me her favourite quote and says she’s thinking about me and my struggle. A voice calling into the suicide hotline telling me not to squander my talent and youth. The endless blog posts and articles telling me to act swiftly and pursue my dreams. Yet I still put them off. Somewhere in my mind I say that these signs weren’t the right ones, or that I need more support from others like some sort of hedonistic, glutton for inspiration. But what is the right sign? Do I need to be fired from my job before I start looking for the right career? Am I waiting to be held at gunpoint before I really start living? Do I need my entire existence to flash before my eyes so that I finally realize the importance of living a wholehearted life?
Signs are beautiful. They make us feel connected to the universe in ways that we often have trouble explaining. But if we don’t acknowledge that the power of signs only lies in their cumulative inspirational value, then we’ll find ourselves postponing our dreams indefinitely. Until we find ourselves saying to younger generations, I wanted to travel once! I almost started my own company once!
Yet a part of me knows that I’m just writing this to feel a slight sense of serenity, as though some uplifting words typed out would be enough to instil true positive change. All the words won’t help me act. All the self-help books and inspirational quotes can’t do much more for me. That’s because I already have the answers I need. I know what needs to be done. And so, I’m making this moment right now the moment I decide to start actively working towards accomplishing my dreams. This marks my intention to finally take action towards something I’ve known I needed to do for a very long time.
This blog represents a new beginning for me to start sharing and stop making excuses. I’m throwing myself into rapid tides of change, and it’s sink or swim. There’s no going back now. This is my public declaration that I'm not going to remain content. Signs are important, but action is essential.
Let the signs guide me along the way, but ultimately I’m the one in control of my life.
What are you waiting for?